Surat...oh...Surat...

As usual, came to work with no GREAT expectation only wanting for a calm morning...yeah, got it for sure this morning. Talk a bit with K...then, suddenly K went missing. Suddenly she came back & standing right beside me...with her happy tone, she asked me to go into KJ's room. At first, i thot that she was joking, then, i just tag along...Went into KJ's room & he handed me a letter....
"oh, surat...", dlm hati je lah kan...

Bos : Here's yr letter. Pls opened it & here's the calculator....
Hahaha...bos ni...
Me : do i need to open it now...?
Still i opened it lar...& i dont expect much for the bonus...only that i saw i have some increment...yg ni indeed i dont expect at all...
Bos : what is your expectation?
Me: errr....i didnt expect anything...just that, the increment...
Cakap terang je lar...& dgn selamba nye...hahaha
Bos : ya...
& then, he started explaining % lar, rating lar, KPI lar...
ok, i got it...Satisfied? Not satisfied? So-so?...Hmmm....nak kata mende lg, dah company mcm ni kan....
But, from K's explaination, seems that almost every1 get the same percentage. Only that a few, ya, of course...those considered as SUPERBLY OUTSTANDING will be getting a lot more higher than the rest...Dunno lar...seems like SALES always get more than the rest of the people...X paham betul lar
Then, neighbor sebelah aku ni budak AR - Finance...tp, dia dah keje kat sini for quite some time...about 11 years...& he is a years older than me...the thing is, when he went out from boss' room this morning...We all were teasing him...ask him to treat us...etc, etc, etc....But, kesian...his face was "black" & he said : Say no MORE. If you guys talk a lot, i will start shouting!!

Adoi lar...kalo tak dpt bnyk pun, jgn la sampai marah org lain...org lain tak bersalah dgn u...ini cuma u dgn company...& cara u tangani mende2 camni..
.U sebagai org yg dah lama kat sini, tunjuk la sikit pro & mature....specially kat depan bebudak baru yg ramai ni...mungkin tak puas hati dgn apa yg dia dapat...Almaklulaa...dah lama kat sini kan...i was in that situation before...tp, sabar lar...jgn la kerana 'bahagian diri' awak tu, awak nak marah org lain...Masya-Allah....kesian pun ade...aku as a neighbor, diamkan je lar...org mcm ni, bukannye leh dilayan sgt bila tengah marah...
Cheers! :-)

Mulut Laser kah aku...?

This story started yesterday, about a fren in the office. Consider gud fren coz we used to hang out together - mostly during lunch time & occasionally during weekend for shopping / movies. Well...she's single, of course most of her time are for herself.
Like usual, me & K were chatting on some things - making fun of each other, etc, etc, etc....Then, K popped up with "eh...D ada mulut masin...whatever she said, mesti jadi one..." Then, i got an idea that if i ask her to say things to me - which i wanted to get twins, so, maybe "the mulut masin" is really going to happen! Hahaha....it was a foolish idea, so, i called her. We were about 3-4 rows gap. I called her and asked her to do so...wanna know what she said? "X nak...x nak...tapi nak cakap K dapat twins..." Then, she started to shout from her desk (of course everyone heard what she said) "K dpt twins...K dpt twins...!" Every1 was freaking out including A. I think A knows that K wont be getting twins & jokingly he said,"If it's true that it is gonna be twins. I'll belanja every1 nasi lemak..." OMG! Everyone became chaotic coz it's hard for A to treat us with even a single sweet....Hahahaha....then, a few others started pushing A for the treat...Poor him! The thing is...the 1 who shouted was not from his division & those who pushed him for the treat are also not from his team. It's wrong! To me, it's shameless....asking for a treat not from yr own boss / ppl from other division...funny & pity him...After talking to K about this (of course K felt really bad), i asked her to asked A if he wanted me to help him buy the nasi lemak. He refused twice! In fact, he asked his staff to go & buy....
So, this morning we had nasi lemak (habis my diet for today...arrgghhh!)& i found out that A's staff did bought the nasi lemak with the right quantity & she claimed as per budgeted = RM2 for each pack. Whereby, actually only < than 1/2 of the packets contain fried egg, the rest only contain boiled egg. Both cost < than RM2!
X baik betul lar...& cukup memalukan yg buat tu is orang Islam ke atas bukan Islam...x baik lar...!
So, this morning, i bought some nice currypuff nearby my house. THou it's small, but the taste is also nice. Just saje bagi diorang rasa & makan together lar...
& tadi, i told D, "bad girl...", while smiling...wah! Air muka berubah & marah...but, she didnt say anything...
Anyway, it's true! Because of her, other peoples feeling bad & some people belanja org with less heartedly...hahahah...ada ke perkataan tu...alaa...>< kurang ikhlas lar...kan ke tak bagus?
By the way, D...
you are already 30 years old. U should have grown up! Think first before u say anything to others... Sendiri mau pk lar...if sendiri boleh main ckp lepas je, of course lar u kene terima apa saja kritikan org lain... :-P

Kalori...oh...kalori...(1)

Kalori itu tenaga...tenaga itu dari food...food tu dari yg kite duk telan tiap2 hari tu ler...tak kira lar drinks ke or food...ingat drinks takde kalori ke? Adaaaaaa......
Tapi, kalo kite terlebih makan, tenaga dari food pun terlebih juga...bila berlebih, body akan simpan stok tenaga ni dalam bentuk FAT untuk kegunaan masa akan datang...
Bayangkan lar hari2 kita simpan stok...ibarat nak simpan during winter...hehehe...masa tu kan kene hibernate...adeh lar...
Haaa...macam tu jugak lar aku...suke makan specially manis...sweet tooth ler katakan...sebab tu muka manis...kehkehkeh! Perasan kejap....
Meh sini nak stori-mori pasal kalori dalam food. Antaranya :
Yummy! Camne lar teh tarik mamak neh leh jadi sedap...kalori : 83kal utk segelas kecil...gandakan lar kalo dah mintak, "Mamak...! Teh Tarik gelas besar satuuu...!"
Perrgghh!!! Lemak & bersari...ada pedasnya, ade lemak nya...ni brekpes biasa bg orang Mesia dr zaman tok nenek kita lagi dah....not so long time ago, orang boleh beli nasi lemak pagi2...lama2 banyak pulak...macam cendawan tumbuh di pagi hari lepas ujan malam tadi...kat tepi2 jalan memang berlambak giler! Pendek kata, keluar jek umah, jalan kaki sikit mesti ada terjumpa makcik2 or cik kak2 tengah jual nasi lemak...yang penentu kesedapan nasi lemak ni cuma a)cukup lemak ke idak nasinya b)sambal yang cukup power! Zaman sekarang ni lagi lar...bukan takat pagi jerk leh dapat...sepanjang masa ada beb! 24 hours a day 7 days a week...Bila2 teringin nak makan nasi lemak, p lah carik...mesti jumpa...pagi ke, siang ke, petang ke, malam ke, awal pagi berembun ke, mesti ada lah...
Haa...yang ni kalorinya :
Nasi lemak sahaja = 644kal = dah bersamaan dengan 3 bowls of rice
Kalo tambah ayam goreng = 644kal + 290kal = 934kal!
Ni untuk breakfast sahaja...adei lar...
Cukup lar takat neh...nanti sambung lagi...aku yang tulis, aku sendiri pun gerun bila baca balik...haaa...baru tau! Dulu degil! Tak mo dengar cakap mak...sekarang baru nak kelam kelibut cari info pasal diet, kalori, ntah hape lagi lar...esok lah sambung... :-)

Aku Jatuh Chentaaaaa...........! :-D

huhuhu....aku dah jatuh chentaaaaaa.....
sbb ape kalernye....bold & stylish mcm kata si eric leong from casa impian...ngeeeeee...... :-D
yg ni cun!
bold in white!
yg ni pun cun gaks....
stunning black & white bold!
yg ni pun sama...slim sikit lar... torch 9800 white!
adei lar...bila leh dapat neh?

DInner @ ??? in Carrefour Shah Alam

at last, 1 carrefour dibuka di shah alam...it;s in section 23 next to LKSA highway...hmmm...last nite p beli fruits untuk today's supply...suke p sana sbb tak pack with people...pastu carrefour dia quite big + ada brg yg tak jumpa kat carrefour subang jaya... :-)
anyway, am not going to storytell about carrefour actually...but, it;s 1 of the cafe in there which holds the motto : cozy & delicious...seating arrangement - ok...color : green...tengok from outside : mmg sedap mata memandang/nmpk menarik...owner : bumi...iklan food : nampak nice & delicious...
so, we all pun masuk lar...order, whatever...tunggu...punye tunggu...tunggu...punye tunggu....tak kunjung tiba...cheh!...tgk pekerja cukup ramai...harga : standard cafe lar...tengok process ambil order what-so-ever : cepat...tapi, food lambat giler!...adeh! Ingatkan sampai tu hot & nice lar...tp yg hot cuma ayam goreng...the rest of the order semua sejuk! cucur udang sejuk...kuah kacang sejuk...nasi lemak sejuk....rasa tu so-so je lar...except for the toasted tuna bread...inti mmg sedap...order 1 gelas air suam, tak sampai2...hmmm....
ambiance dah cun tp order ambil masa terlampau lama...tengok table lain pun sama gak...kedai bumi ni mmg kene improve lg...kalau order food sampai cepat, mesti kedai dia penuh... :-)

Facebook...oh...Facebook

oh facebook ku...
ku kepingin menatap wajah mu
bagaikan ada lambaian tangan mu
bersama hembusan angin bayu...
meniup lembut ke telingaku...
oh syahdu...
oh facebook ku...
bukan sekadar menitip khabar diriku
ku juga menatap titipan teman2ku
bukan itu sahaja facebook ku...
aku ketagihan farmville...haru!
oh facebook ku...
sanggup ku toleh pergi dr movies faberet ku
sanggup ku bertahan tidak menyuap nasi brg sesudu
sanggup ku tidak bersiram d kamar mandi biruku
sanggup ku menahan mata dari beradu...
mcm ni mmg boleh jd haru biru...huhuhuhu
sekian tulisan ku yg agak sengal2 kalbu...:-)

Hmmm.....ziarah...

Hehehe...salam...ini bukan ziarah apa2...just ke puchong melawat ibu mertua yg sekarang tinggal dgn akak ipar...sambil tu abg menghantar kiriman minyak itam + spare parts kete untuk Andak...bnyk betul dia beli minyak itam, sampai 3 botol...
Keluarga yang loud & noisy tp kadang2 aku x berapa suka bila mulut depa ni celupar...tak semua adik beradik lar...just beberapa kerat yg mcm tu...so, macam biasa...aku bersembang serba sedikit dgn mentua tp mata kejap2 tengok tv... :-)
actually mata mengantuk sbb layan tv sampai pagi...hahahaha....

Dah Lama Kan...?

Yes...dah lama aku tak bukak this blog...sebabnya? aku lupa password...hahahah....well, hrtu ada orang hack aku nye hotmail akaun...since this blog pun link to that email, aku takleh nak login...almost stopped trying to find way to log in, at last...i manage to! Aaaaaaaaa.........yey! Dpt masuk balik...hehehe...
sukanya...
Today is the last day of school...so, idlan & isyraf sekarang tengah fighting kat depan...main game lar ape lagi...darling? Darling p makan2 best kan Restoran Chan @ section 15....hmmm...makan best aje pakcik tu...makin tembam lar jadinye...huhuhuhu...
Aku kat sini cuba nak update blog hari2...it;s 1 of my resolutions...while waiting for maghrib to come, why not update...kena mula from somewhere...kalau tak, mmg susah!

"Jaga" 25/5/10

"Jaga" during lunch time is not so bad lar...but, today....it;s really way out of line...i went out to find food. D refused to asked me / ignore me since monday morning...okey...what the heck! I dont mind...i can find my own food. Then, i went out at 12.02pm heading to Carrefour Subang Jaya. Bought tom yam + rice + omellette...Went down to Carrefour to look for ISOMIL Plus....if there;s promo, then i'll buy for 1 month stock.
I drove back to Maersk, had a race with Civic 1.8 on the way back (hehehehe....), & when i stepped in the office, saw those FIN girls + kath + 2 OPS lady happily eating at the pantry...The time already 5 minutes pass 1pm. So, i straight away kept my things at my desk, took my bowl & fork + spoon & my water bottle & straight to the pantry. Well, they asked me to sit with them...Which is fine with me...Talk a bit...Then, i started eating my food quietly + pretending nothing happened...since D always say that she dont care...so, why i shud care what she felt & think....
Then, finished eating, i saw my watch already 1.30pm. Kath & a few others are still there, havent going to wrap up whatever they started. So, i started to make a move towards the sink bowl, wash whatever needed & packed the rest of stuff, walked straight to the frontdesk. I didnt say a word. I hope they will feel guilty...but, seems that they dont...hump!!!

I'm still here...

Aku di sini...lagi...duduk di frontdesk...jd frontdesk manager...hahahaha...
Dah la suh aku duk sini...org lain syok2 keluar lunch...aku jenuh pk nak lunch ape...yg cepat, pantas, then leh duk sini...Cuba la bg kat aku menatang ni...yg letak kat kepala & telinga tu...kasik wirelessnye...sure aku hepi la...bg meja ni cantik sikit...huhuhhu....kasi aku nmpk glemer sikit duk kat dpn neh... Pehtu, bg le uniform canggih sikit...tailor-made kan...aku pun sukeeee sesangat...bg make-up set, anta pi training make-up neh...for sure aku suke....hmmm....ape lg aku nak merapu meraban ni ha...dah duk kat dpn mcm 'batu' je....
haa....nak amik gmbr la....gmbr frontdesk neh...nanti korang tgk ye...dlm facebook pun ade...huhuhuhu...

Aku Cuma Seorang Kuli-ketip

Sesungguhnya aku benci duduk di depan ni...jadi "jaga"...Tp, apa aku nak buat?
Aku cuma seorang kuli-ketip...Kerja2 ku sebagai Admin Executive...huh!...dipandang rendah oleh sesetengah org Maersk...depa ingat Admin ni keje senang...keje remeh...keje kerani je kot...sbb tu sesetengah tu pandang sebelah mate je, sometimes tak pandang langsung!
Menjadi kebiasaan kalau kami di Admin ni diperlekehkan dgn kata2 yg "menarik" / "sedap di dgr" oleh staff2 kat sini...diperbodohkan pun perkara biasa...tp most of the times, kami diam. Dept aku, cuma aku dgn Kath. Nita dah kene transfer ke 2nd floor. Jd Admin di sana. Kami dipecahkan...hmmm....tp, bl ada apa2, org carik Admin. Bende2 stupid pun nak tanye Admin. Ni lah dia...org2 yg pandang kami dgn sebelah mata...'bende2 stupid' + 'mende2 remeh' ni, dtg lah depa carik kami...tak sedar diri betul...! Sabar aje lah...
berbalik semula psl duk dpn ni...ye la...aku dgn kath je kat admin ni yg tinggal...oleh kerana die senior aku, maka akulah yg kene terpacak kat dpn ni bl receptionist cuti ke, sakit ke, emergency ke....dulu, ade 2 org receptionist. Sekarang ni tggl sorang sbb si Pakistani tu p terminate sorang. Dia tak pk consequences nya...die cuma pk, jimat company money & more money can go to his pocket...huh! (actually ni assumption kitorang la...tp mmg betul...secara x langsungnya...).
Aku terpaksa terima dgn tidak relanya...marah pun ade...kadang2 tu rasa kecewa la...dah duk kat dpn ni, ape lah sgt yg aku leh buat...mati kutu satu...sib baik la boleh link dgn internet...tp...aku kan...bukannye leh tahan lama wat satu2 mende tu...cepat boring! Takkan la seharian aku nak ngadap internet...bos nmpk, tak bagus...super big bos nampak, lagiiiiiiii la tak bagus...kalo konco2 or spy2 dia yg nmpk? bukan takat tak bagus, haru...tp leh mati dibuatnye...ye lah...org nye penyampaian tu kekadang exaggerating...melebih2...menjadikan kite ni mcm 'org x guna' + 'mcm sampah' laks...adeh!
Kdg tu...bukan kdg2...selalu...kecewa bl duk dpn ni sbb at least aku nye lunch break dah kene potong 1/2 jam...adil ke idak? org lain leh senang2 rehat 1 jam, sometimes smpi 2 jam...aku ni laks...dah la jd centre org nak menumpang kete beli food, mtk tlg aku p beli food, pehtu rush blk bawak food, p mkn - rush jg & terus p jd 'jaga' kat dpn sementara receptionist p break...tak demotivated ker camnih? Geram pun ade...
sedih pun ye...nasib..nasib...
Kalo nak tau, time keje is keje la...time rehat pun org nak kacau...time mkn...bukannye kire depa2 ni...as if Admin ni takyah rehat...tulah...kdg2 tu, kalo ade yg kacau time rehat, aku bg glaring lebih sikit mate tu kat org tu...kasik pandangan menusuk kalbu sikit...biar depa terperasan...hehehehehe....kdg tu bg expression muke tak puas ati...rasakan...huwahahahaha......bagus tak...?
lepas tu....aku tak tau la senior aku tu perasan ke idak...ataupun die saje buat2 tak perasan...time die break mmg cukup lama / panjang compare dgn aku...dah la aku bekejar belikan die food, blk die mkn sama...aku dah sudah mkn, die tak sudah lg...sembang tak habis, dgn gelak2 with other 'makan kaki'...frustrating la camni...aku takleh enjoy my lunch hour, takleh nak kasi perut aku rehat lps1 mkn, takleh nak tarik nafas tu kejap...huhuhuhuhu....
Dahla jd 'jaga' kat dpn...tp tu le...mana extra gaji aku for the extra work? Mane extra gaji aku for the extra time taken from my lunch break? Mane extra gaji aku sbb jd 'org suruhan' tak bertauliah....
Aku x suke...senior aku tau...bos aku tau...cuma...si Pakistani keparat perasan Royal kat Mesia nih yg otak letak kat lutut...tak pk ker? Kalu nak ikutkan, dah lama dah aku sue this company...senang2 jek...Tp, aku teringat CD yg ayang beli...ustadz tu ckp, sabar...ganjaran di akhirat sok teramatlah besar...aku marah?...ye..aku bengang?..ye...aku terima? yee....aku kecewa?...ye...aku sedih?...ye...aku redha?...hmmm...aku tgk pk2 ni...50/50 lagik...hopefully, akan dtg, aku redha 100%
:-I

Hopefully It's Going to Inspire Me...

Last 2 weeks, i found this blog by Husaini Ujang...quite interesting though coz this guy set his 90-day goal a.k.a limit to reduce his weight to....well...i havent finish reading it all yet...just reach his 31st day of using JDM5 & his dieting diary...hmmm...seems that he's easily able to reduce his weight & his mind can conquer his appetite & 'nafsu' from eating all those mouth-watering food. Yeah...sometimes he even eat those 'not-supposed-to-eat-food' as well but, the quantity is just enough to taste / itsy-bitsy / lose those cravings...really 'kuat iman' la this guy...& yeah...he's a guy...for most guys, it's easy for them to cut the fat compared to women...he just bike / brisk walk / jog for only about 30-40 minutes, he is able to cut at least 0.5 gram....that;s almost 2 pound rite?...well, i hope his blog could inspire me more...have to start back my JDM5 regime...& this time, must do it stringently...? hahaha....hopefully...& by the way, this guy managed to NOT HAVING EVEN A SPOON OF NASI for more than a month (according to what i read & where i stop reading just now...heheheh) Fuuhhh!...way to go man...salute!

I was too Angry Last Nite / Marah Tak Terhingga..?

Just because of 2-pc of jersy-material of tudung, i was too angry with him. He simply do things without thinking more. "Never care less" - this is what he is!....aaarrgghhh...!
I bought these tudung at Danga Bay Johor. RM25 each after negotiated with the owner. So, i bought 2 pieces coz much2 cheaper than in Shah Alam's price. The owner claimed that the front part (awning) of the tudung is specially made & when we wear it, the curve will follow the curve of our face.So, whenever we wear it, it;ll be perfectly nice on our face. Yes! It;s true & i am happy with it...Regret that i only bought for 2 pieces. Then, i care for it. I hang the tudung properly, even washed it properly & hang to dry in nicely manner so that the front-part wont break.
But, he simply take off the tudung from the hanger & lump together with the rest of other dry clothes on the couch. I was going to take it from the laundry area last nite, & i couldnt find it at all....! I already panic...i was afraid that he'll simply do things as i expected - lump & dump everything together...i didnt want to simply jump to conclusion so, i look around at the hanging ironed clothes area - didnt see any...i went back to the laundry area, twice - none. I went to the closet, also didnt c a single thing....arrgghhh!!!....then i went to the last place - dumping clothes at the couch....there it was...found both being lump & being seated at the bottom or dumped clothes.....i was really really really angry! I even shouted in angry & agony....why on earth does he did this to me! Why cant he think more? Why...? I've told him many times before that this tudung can be find at the SACC but the price is RM60-70 per piece. I;ve bought 1 at the PKNS, but, the front part is not the same. I even bought it at RM48 per piece & am not satisfy with it at all. Which part actually dont register to his head? Why dont he want to listen to whatever i told him? Why cant he care for more instead of care for less?????.....
The thing is :
@ i told him dozens of times about the price & quality which is actually hard to find. Those were sold at RM10 - 30 here is all fake
@ i am thinking of starting fresh next year bit by bit by wearing tudung to work, & collecting / buying a number of tudung specially this type, but he ruined it!
I am so damn angry!
He wanted me to wear tudung - that;s all he can think of!...He only want me to wear tudung but never care for other things - solat, puasa, zakat, etc etc etc was never being mentioned from his mouth! IT IS the other way round. I;m the 1 who ask him to do all these things. For me, i have to think / do by myself! You know what...sometimes i really call him a SHIT. (yaaa...sometimes i dont care the consequences during the end of the world coz i was really mad with him...i know it;ll be a BIG SIN...but, i was too mad! Though i never spell it out from my mouth only from my heart - it's still a big sin)
Sakit nye hati bila die dtg dekat semalam, lain kali basuh sendiri, gantung sendiri, angkat sendiri...balas balik mmg la basuh sendiri, gantung sendiri tp awak tu p angkat & campur dgn kain lain apsal? Kenapa angkat kalo tak reti nak jaga? Bengang...bengang...bengang....suruh aku pakai tudung, tp mende2 camni takmo tolong jaga...nampak sgt buat mende, sekadar lepas batuk tepi tangga takmo buat sungguh2....hidup hari2 pun bersepah...suke sgt menyepah...nak tolong pun dgn cara sepah die...walhal die dah nampak cara aku buat, teratur...menyenangkan dia aje...part ni mcm tak pernah masuk otak die...buat properly biar the next step tu tak perlu nak buat kerja 2X....part mana yg dia tak nampak...itu yg kadang2 keluar perkataan BODOH dari hati aku...dah lama being together pun takleh nak buat properly...so, hari ni aku malas nak ckp dgn dia...even sampai next week...target aku nak cukupkan tudung before year 2010. Kalau aku tak jumpa tudung2 murah kat sini, i might even drive to Danga Bay & buy the tudung. Pedulik apa....my car, my fuel, my Zing card...pernah ke selama ni die dgn rela hati nak sponsor tudung aku? Tak pernah sekalipun!...tanye pun idak, janji ape2 pun idak...pandai2 sendiri la...selama hari ni aku yg beli sendiri...duit aku sendiri...kalau dia ade bayar pun, itupun sebab aku mintak...mintak bayarkan...die pulak mcm la aku tak nampak bila die keluarkan wallet - muke tak ikhlas...mcm ni punye peel tp suruh aku pakai tudung? Mane aku tak bengang???? Nak beli baju kurung pun, nak kene mintak2 dgn dia...langsung tak pk or tak tanye aku perlukan ke idak....ape punye lelaki mcm nih...???? Sakit ati aku!...

Frens...?? In the Office...

Rather not to say that some of them are not frens but more to colleagues / co-worker...why?
Today, i was being left alone. Kath is on 1/2 day leave coz tomorrow is X-mas & she's taking the chance of utilising company;s benefit - 1/2 day FREE leave given by company on the eve of her celebration. It;s ok for me...Melina also on leave. She;s also celebrating X-mas...i can say that she;s a hard-core church activist...It's fine for me too...
So, i've stranded at the front-desk. Have to replace Melina;s place. Whole day long. Though i hate it, but, i have to do it. It;s HR people who asked SOS about this. So, whenever the receptionist not around, ADM have to back-up. They dont care whether we have to go the ladies, or need a 2-minute coffee break or need some food for lunch break or at least a 1 hour break or not...The thing is, somebody must be standing by at the front-desk at ALL TIME...repeat....at ALL TIME...i keep on cursing the 'one' from HR who ask this thing - Shireen Ng!....when i keep on thinking of this, to me, she;s like a bitch. Huh!
So, today....2 x-colleagues came over & ask Diyana & a few others for a lunch-out together at Subang Parade. Diyana did ask me (thru e-mail along together with other people...just sekadar berbasa-basi...hahahah) So, i said..."i have to be a "jaga" at the front. Sorry! i cant go...just "tapau" for me coz i am really hungry". I saw only a few names in the email not including 2 people who drives to work but, always want to 'tumpang' my car to 'tapau' food during lunch break. Then, i saw them walked out together with the rest of people...pegi makan, without even asking me whether i have food or i need food or whatever. They just go...Frust? yeah...They dont even care...When they need me, they'll look for me. When they dont need me, they dont even bother about me at all...huh!...& then, for most of the time during lunch break, they want to follow me because i drive. They dont want to drive coz wanna save fuel for their car...What a pathetic! As if i dont need to save anything for myself. At least if i want things, i try to get it by myself. Dont want to depend on others. Dont take advantage on others....They're good frens to me in the office? Naaahhh....they barely speak to me. As i said before, they dont care....!...aaarrgghhh...! Why i keep on seeing / dealing / getting these kind of people...Not that i think / feel that i am a perfect person...i am not...But, i try my best to do good to others, to be sincere with them...But, people are doing these things to me...how pathetic! & how frustrated....like my mom / my ustadz or ustadzah during shool days said, "if we do good to others, others will do the same to you or you will get good things in return"...seems like the value of sincerety, honesty & be good to others are going to be perished....

With You - Chris Brown

I have cold feet!

My job search continues.....after a few times of rejections without being called for interviews, at last, IKA (Asia) Sdn Bhd called me. It's supposed to be tomorrow (23/12/2009) @ 9am...but, then, i had cold feet few days back...then, yesterday until today i was thinking or perhaps feels uneasy of going there for the interview. My heart says 'dont go'...& i also felt that i shouldnt go. Why? I dunno....normally, i trust my heart & what i feel...for no certain reason but, in the end, i'll know something not good / got something good....hmmmm....
A few days back, i always have the feeling / phobia of sitting in an interview session specially in a room with many interviewers......huh! It;s actually torturing me! ....hahahaha...
then, yesterday i felt that i shouldnt go at all....Ayang yet to know about this...but, i think he'll be mad...hahaha....

Wish List d BDO...now turn to be d Malaysia...

Remember last time when i tell u guys about my wish list in Bandung? Seems like i dont bring enough cash / standby enough cash for shopping in BDO....tak cukup!....peerrgghh....
Things that i looked for : (hahaha....exagerate lak...betul ke eja nih?....) >< like this hahahaha....but, actually >< like this la...
, & even looked for this for my beloved 'atok' tu la...utk sape lg kan.... ....
for those clothes, yg tensionnye coz i couldnt find my size...chet! For that watch, i found it, but the price....fuuuhhh...! Quite expensive...almost 1m...hahaha...not in million ringgit malaysia...but almost 1million ruppiah...almost RM500 gak le...i only bring IR1.4million....hmmmm
So now, it'll become my Wish List in Malaysia...saw my payslip yesterday. Only 1 month bonus....huh! Frustrating, but Alhamdulillah....at least ade gak salary & bonus rite...Bonus base on KPI, yet to be evaluated la...this 1 will be in February 2010...& will be conpensated in April. (I am trying to calm myself on this...asking my heart to wait for it...if i go now, i wont be compensated for that at all...arrgghh...!!!)
So, need to shop for this later...have to budget, of course...& dunno yet whether i can get all these things by this year...wanna know my new wish list? Here it is :
1) GUESS watch for him & for me...(it;s actually got some sentimental value...got this watch after a few date with him...it was a pair - 1 for him & 1 for me)
2) need to decorate my house...now waiting for the kitchen cabinet to settled. others - guess have to wait for their turn...huhuhuhuh
3) need to re-personalised my personality....this 1 will be a surprise to lots of people...hahahaha
4) need to buy a treadmill....have to work-out from home. cant go to the gym anymore...need lots of time like last time...& i need to sacrifice a lot of things too - money + time
5) need to find a new & secure job....
6) i want to register for language class...perhaps Japanese...?
7) need to contact suppliers & actively doing my online biz...
8) Haj by the age of 35...hopefully can do this...but, i cannot quit from my job then.../ stay working, not being a housewife
9) a lot of things la.........aiyoyoyoyoyo....

hmmm....???.....

i just wonder how can a person dont care about other's feelings? they dont care how they deliver the things to others as long as their work is done. "dont care...dont care...dont care....as long as my work is done!"
hmmmm....isnt it working in the same company specially within the same department needs everyone to being cooperative, tolerative, understanding, & at least 'have-a-heart' attitude...?
*sigh!*