Hmmm.....ziarah...

Hehehe...salam...ini bukan ziarah apa2...just ke puchong melawat ibu mertua yg sekarang tinggal dgn akak ipar...sambil tu abg menghantar kiriman minyak itam + spare parts kete untuk Andak...bnyk betul dia beli minyak itam, sampai 3 botol...
Keluarga yang loud & noisy tp kadang2 aku x berapa suka bila mulut depa ni celupar...tak semua adik beradik lar...just beberapa kerat yg mcm tu...so, macam biasa...aku bersembang serba sedikit dgn mentua tp mata kejap2 tengok tv... :-)
actually mata mengantuk sbb layan tv sampai pagi...hahahaha....

I was too Angry Last Nite / Marah Tak Terhingga..?

Just because of 2-pc of jersy-material of tudung, i was too angry with him. He simply do things without thinking more. "Never care less" - this is what he is!....aaarrgghhh...!
I bought these tudung at Danga Bay Johor. RM25 each after negotiated with the owner. So, i bought 2 pieces coz much2 cheaper than in Shah Alam's price. The owner claimed that the front part (awning) of the tudung is specially made & when we wear it, the curve will follow the curve of our face.So, whenever we wear it, it;ll be perfectly nice on our face. Yes! It;s true & i am happy with it...Regret that i only bought for 2 pieces. Then, i care for it. I hang the tudung properly, even washed it properly & hang to dry in nicely manner so that the front-part wont break.
But, he simply take off the tudung from the hanger & lump together with the rest of other dry clothes on the couch. I was going to take it from the laundry area last nite, & i couldnt find it at all....! I already panic...i was afraid that he'll simply do things as i expected - lump & dump everything together...i didnt want to simply jump to conclusion so, i look around at the hanging ironed clothes area - didnt see any...i went back to the laundry area, twice - none. I went to the closet, also didnt c a single thing....arrgghhh!!!....then i went to the last place - dumping clothes at the couch....there it was...found both being lump & being seated at the bottom or dumped clothes.....i was really really really angry! I even shouted in angry & agony....why on earth does he did this to me! Why cant he think more? Why...? I've told him many times before that this tudung can be find at the SACC but the price is RM60-70 per piece. I;ve bought 1 at the PKNS, but, the front part is not the same. I even bought it at RM48 per piece & am not satisfy with it at all. Which part actually dont register to his head? Why dont he want to listen to whatever i told him? Why cant he care for more instead of care for less?????.....
The thing is :
@ i told him dozens of times about the price & quality which is actually hard to find. Those were sold at RM10 - 30 here is all fake
@ i am thinking of starting fresh next year bit by bit by wearing tudung to work, & collecting / buying a number of tudung specially this type, but he ruined it!
I am so damn angry!
He wanted me to wear tudung - that;s all he can think of!...He only want me to wear tudung but never care for other things - solat, puasa, zakat, etc etc etc was never being mentioned from his mouth! IT IS the other way round. I;m the 1 who ask him to do all these things. For me, i have to think / do by myself! You know what...sometimes i really call him a SHIT. (yaaa...sometimes i dont care the consequences during the end of the world coz i was really mad with him...i know it;ll be a BIG SIN...but, i was too mad! Though i never spell it out from my mouth only from my heart - it's still a big sin)
Sakit nye hati bila die dtg dekat semalam, lain kali basuh sendiri, gantung sendiri, angkat sendiri...balas balik mmg la basuh sendiri, gantung sendiri tp awak tu p angkat & campur dgn kain lain apsal? Kenapa angkat kalo tak reti nak jaga? Bengang...bengang...bengang....suruh aku pakai tudung, tp mende2 camni takmo tolong jaga...nampak sgt buat mende, sekadar lepas batuk tepi tangga takmo buat sungguh2....hidup hari2 pun bersepah...suke sgt menyepah...nak tolong pun dgn cara sepah die...walhal die dah nampak cara aku buat, teratur...menyenangkan dia aje...part ni mcm tak pernah masuk otak die...buat properly biar the next step tu tak perlu nak buat kerja 2X....part mana yg dia tak nampak...itu yg kadang2 keluar perkataan BODOH dari hati aku...dah lama being together pun takleh nak buat properly...so, hari ni aku malas nak ckp dgn dia...even sampai next week...target aku nak cukupkan tudung before year 2010. Kalau aku tak jumpa tudung2 murah kat sini, i might even drive to Danga Bay & buy the tudung. Pedulik apa....my car, my fuel, my Zing card...pernah ke selama ni die dgn rela hati nak sponsor tudung aku? Tak pernah sekalipun!...tanye pun idak, janji ape2 pun idak...pandai2 sendiri la...selama hari ni aku yg beli sendiri...duit aku sendiri...kalau dia ade bayar pun, itupun sebab aku mintak...mintak bayarkan...die pulak mcm la aku tak nampak bila die keluarkan wallet - muke tak ikhlas...mcm ni punye peel tp suruh aku pakai tudung? Mane aku tak bengang???? Nak beli baju kurung pun, nak kene mintak2 dgn dia...langsung tak pk or tak tanye aku perlukan ke idak....ape punye lelaki mcm nih...???? Sakit ati aku!...

14/11/2009

14/11/2009 - it was my my 11th Anniversary together with my dear abg kopam AHA....
:-P ....seems like it was only yesterday "our grand" wedding was held in Segamat, Johor & in Bagan Datoh, Perak. Got sooooo many sweet & sorrow memories together with him.....hmmm....
Well....i got nothing given to him tho'...hahahaha...coz got no money...have to wait till i get my salary by the end of this month. Have certain things in mind :
1) Fishing reel - Abu Garcia RM390 (2nd-hand from mudah.com)
2) Platinum ring - thinking of getting a pair of it. So, both of us will be wearing it. Price abour RM1k each....Phew! (makes me sweat a lot when looking at the price...huhuhuhu...)
3) Watch - hard to find 'skin-friendly' watch. He's quite allergic to leather / rubber / metal strap. If i found 1 - the price will be more than RM1K...phew! Pengsan!
4) Found J.Bovier stainless steel ring. About RM60-100 per piece. This should be ok...Need to order for his size. & not too pricy. I can buy a pair....hahaha...
thinking of putting the ring into a ring box & send it over with own-made card & bought a love-shape cake. Have to ask adik-adik in AISB to help...hehehe...just to pass it over to him....or, wanna make more grand, ask the cake shop to send it over...! :-P
For me, i got my anniversary gift on 12.20am 14/11/09 itself. Got a big pinky bag with lots of love pictures on it. Havent thought of anything, but, when i openned it up, it was 3 pieces of lacy bras....huwalawe! Just what i need & on time to replace my existing bras tho'. Today, wearing the blue color - same color as my turquoise baju kurung. He said he likes this color. So, should be showing him this 1 today. This morning, he havent got the chance to see it....heheheheheeh....other color - brown & grey....hmmmm....

Attemps to Buy a House

I was trying to buy a house since last 10 years. But, by looking at my financial situation i.e salary, i wont have the chance. The house cost is much much more than my buying power. I didnt have side income. Only depends on the salary, annual increment, bonuses, allowances & OTs. Yet, it was not enough. The house cost increases much faster compared to my income - yearly basis. Made me unable to grab a dream home.....
Within that 10 long years, i planned for increments. I add my workload. I changed the process. I reduced redundancies. I eliminated a few steps. In fact, every single long work that i had to do, i changed it into more effective & efficient way. I registered almost everything into Kaizen or OPI or QCC just wanted to prove to my x-boss that i'm good! I was actively get involved in many activities / projects held by the dept. But, it seems that he & she didnt even saw it. They put all those things in their KPIs & appraisels, i was the 1 who did it, but at last, it became theirs...what a pathetic!... ....& so, there goes my dream home with my dream future & pathetic attitude boss + superior...
So, i seeked for a new job with a lot higher salary. It was a definite decision to leave them & the company behind. It;s time for me to move on...
When, started to work here, i thot i'll be able to buy a dream home. But, it seems that the value of my dream home keep going up & up & up much faster than what i earned. Makes me feel frustrated again!
The 1 that makes me heartbroken is a house in Kemuning Utama. Booked a house there, even paid the d/payment, but, bank wont give us the loan!....aaarrgghhh...!!!!!
Then, with 1/2-heartedly, i booked a house in pinggiran USJ, with low price directly from developer.....again, frustrated!...Only MBSB granted a loan with additonal RM20K to be paid to developer or get another NAME to be part of loan acquire....At last, cancelled the purchase...
Then, saw the Mutiara Anggerik at Section 15. Intended to buy it (14th Floor), but, the same thing happenned again. Already have many commitments. So, bank wont grant a loan......
Then, something happened that made me have to move to Kondo Sri Pelangi at Batu 3. The owner offered the house to us about RM113K. Still waiting for loan to be approved. . Should be no problem to purchased it. Coz the purchase price is less than RM250K. Hmmm...actually i dont hope for anything... :-(
Then, went to see the Subang Andaman. Booked it also. The intention is to get both house in hand. 1 will be as a future investment. 1 will be own occupied. Hope to get this 1 also...hmmm.....
Now u guys know, how many attempts that i did to get a dream home... :-l

I Am Tired

Today i am a bit tired. Dunno why. Maybe lambat makan...or maybe i took less sugar & salt for the last 5 days...maybe i have a high blood pressure or super low blood pressure...maybe i think too much. Balancing my timing between work / home / kids / own time...In fact, i dont have my own time. That's why once in a while, i need to relieve myself by going anywhere with frens - movies / window shopping / just hanging out
Being with 3 males at home, makes me tired. Not because there are males. I'm not shallow or stereotype. But, their attitude towards things are more to typical male. What can i do? If i dont start talking / yelling (yes...sometimes)/ babbling (which is against my nature), they just leave things disorganize...i hate that! I hate to talk too much...i hate to see my house with lots of things lying around on the floor...i hate lizards...i hate to see things DISORGANIZE....errrgghhh...!
Sometimes, i just leave everything....i dont wanna be their so-called "maid" as i am the one who clear all the mess. Let it be...Wanna see how long they can stand being in a mess. The result??....frustrating...they tend to leave & let things in a mess....