Was i being used...?

hmm...."daddy" aka bos kacau...will continue about this later....
orait. today 9/4/09 baru leh sambung...
I was doing some thinking few days back which reminds me or actually woke me up from dreaming / thinking of all good things from others....
Last time, i took Herbalife for my slimming program. But, after 2 months of consumption, my weight was like a yo-yo. I've followed the consultant's advice. But, nothing happenned. As usual, yo-yo weight....
have to stop again...Sorry! :-(
The consultant is actually one of frens from high school. She's actually a nice person. 1 of the grade A's students. I dont know whether she is actually sincerely wanted to contact me because we used to be frens, or she just wanted to sell her products or what-ever other reasons. I think that she's sincere....that's what i used to think about others...always positive stuff! :-)
The thing is....after 1 month consumption & a few meet-ups with her, she told me that 1 of the x-schoolmates going to organize a so-called meet-up with ole frens from school. and.....she also told me that they also want to see me & see whether i lost some weight from the program or not...well...i was kinda excited that they suddenly wanted to meet me.
When i arrived at M's house in Sg Buloh, i saw lots of her ole gang there. Even 1 good fren that i wanted to get in touch for years were also there. I was...? I dunno what i felt at that moment. This so-called best fren never wanted to contact me, but...she contacted the rest at the event...? I was a bit surprised. I was trying to get her number from group mailing list & no one from the event replied about it. Some said that they dont know where she is & what;s her latest contact number!.... :-(
When i arrived at M's house, i was greeted, shook hands with 'em & sit. Yes, they're looking at me, observing my size (i guess) & also they commented on my hubby's good looking feature (???...).....
Yes, they were talking to each other....but, not me...i was trying to fit-in by talking something or perhaps add-on something to their conversation...but, that's it. I was like only interrupting their conversation.
I was thinking, why was i actually invited to this event? Just to compare my physical appearance, my weight, etc, etc, etc...? Even when it's already 9.00++pm, no one even moved, except me....& i know...like what used to happen in school, they were talking about me.... :-)
After the event, no 1 contacted me even to say hi...except for the fren consultant asking whether i want to top-up my supplies....
Was i being used? I think so....Better i stay away from 'em & stay put in my own world...like i used to be....
They'll come to find me if they needs help. Until then, i'll remain "hollow girl" to 'em....................................................