Headache....oh, headache...

I was in "stone / gloomy mode" since....i dunno when. But, it;s getting worst from day to day. I think that;s the reason why i always having a headache. From once a month become bi-weekly become weekly become 1-2 times a week, now become almost everyday....today, i was having it this morning & now....huh!

the whole day i was like doing my work in front of my pc with my head laying on the desk....while thinking, "it'll be nice if i can close my eyes & doze...or...maybe, it'll be nice to stay at home & sleep....aaaaaahhh...." what a nice feeling!
maybe, i was too stress up thinking of getting a new job. i couldnt get a single job till now!...actually, i had a few calls...only that whether i got scared to answer it or other factors that align with it. Cold feet? yaaaa......i was like too scared to go for an interview - it;s like a syndrom. Like what i was having before working in Maersk!...hahahahaha....Then, the other factors that i mentioned align to the job is - salary...the work place (some in sg. buloh industrial area....really in 'ceruk' place loooorrr)....traffic....etc, etc, etc... *sigh*...headache....headache....
& there are sooooooo many things that i keep on thinking...
~ to settle my housing loan in Putra Perdana - RM11K
~ to settle my credit card - RM5K...
~ to settle my personal loan - RM4K
~ to sell my Viva...& buy perhaps a Virago for my darling
~ Isyraf's swimming class & english class
~ Idlan's playschool with the transport, etc, etc, etc
~ need to get a new laptop...current 1 is getting worst
~ need cash to start my biz...huh!
headache...oh, headache....