Lucky - Jason Mraz & Colby Callait

sweet song - the lyrics are more or less like me & my darling...hahahahaah

Headache....oh, headache...

I was in "stone / gloomy mode" since....i dunno when. But, it;s getting worst from day to day. I think that;s the reason why i always having a headache. From once a month become bi-weekly become weekly become 1-2 times a week, now become almost everyday....today, i was having it this morning & now....huh!

the whole day i was like doing my work in front of my pc with my head laying on the desk....while thinking, "it'll be nice if i can close my eyes & doze...or...maybe, it'll be nice to stay at home & sleep....aaaaaahhh...." what a nice feeling!
maybe, i was too stress up thinking of getting a new job. i couldnt get a single job till now!...actually, i had a few calls...only that whether i got scared to answer it or other factors that align with it. Cold feet? yaaaa......i was like too scared to go for an interview - it;s like a syndrom. Like what i was having before working in Maersk!...hahahahaha....Then, the other factors that i mentioned align to the job is - salary...the work place (some in sg. buloh industrial area....really in 'ceruk' place loooorrr)....traffic....etc, etc, etc... *sigh*...headache....headache....
& there are sooooooo many things that i keep on thinking...
~ to settle my housing loan in Putra Perdana - RM11K
~ to settle my credit card - RM5K...
~ to settle my personal loan - RM4K
~ to sell my Viva...& buy perhaps a Virago for my darling
~ Isyraf's swimming class & english class
~ Idlan's playschool with the transport, etc, etc, etc
~ need to get a new laptop...current 1 is getting worst
~ need cash to start my biz...huh!
headache...oh, headache....

14/11/2009

14/11/2009 - it was my my 11th Anniversary together with my dear abg kopam AHA....
:-P ....seems like it was only yesterday "our grand" wedding was held in Segamat, Johor & in Bagan Datoh, Perak. Got sooooo many sweet & sorrow memories together with him.....hmmm....
Well....i got nothing given to him tho'...hahahaha...coz got no money...have to wait till i get my salary by the end of this month. Have certain things in mind :
1) Fishing reel - Abu Garcia RM390 (2nd-hand from mudah.com)
2) Platinum ring - thinking of getting a pair of it. So, both of us will be wearing it. Price abour RM1k each....Phew! (makes me sweat a lot when looking at the price...huhuhuhu...)
3) Watch - hard to find 'skin-friendly' watch. He's quite allergic to leather / rubber / metal strap. If i found 1 - the price will be more than RM1K...phew! Pengsan!
4) Found J.Bovier stainless steel ring. About RM60-100 per piece. This should be ok...Need to order for his size. & not too pricy. I can buy a pair....hahaha...
thinking of putting the ring into a ring box & send it over with own-made card & bought a love-shape cake. Have to ask adik-adik in AISB to help...hehehe...just to pass it over to him....or, wanna make more grand, ask the cake shop to send it over...! :-P
For me, i got my anniversary gift on 12.20am 14/11/09 itself. Got a big pinky bag with lots of love pictures on it. Havent thought of anything, but, when i openned it up, it was 3 pieces of lacy bras....huwalawe! Just what i need & on time to replace my existing bras tho'. Today, wearing the blue color - same color as my turquoise baju kurung. He said he likes this color. So, should be showing him this 1 today. This morning, he havent got the chance to see it....heheheheheeh....other color - brown & grey....hmmmm....

Silent Cries...

Just now i went thru my FB. Suddenly i found some new pictures...pictures from a PPP fren which i went for studies in PPP/ITM last time for ADP II Program. I was... i almost wanted to cry...these are the frens that been struggling together for future live in reality world. Not to mention who cheated in almost every exam, pop-quiz, plagiarized paper works, etc...etc...etc... I;m in a mixture of feelings actually, till i dunno how to write these down. Those who cheated during uni time actually graduated. Except for me, who did not want to get involve with those things. Who play safe...Who wanted to play honest & truthful...who wanted to be fair to other students who actually studied.... But, now...look at where i am & where they are...i'm still struggling in live...but, they simply can live with great jobs & lives. Don't they fell guilty? Guilty for doing such things during their uni days? Guilty of cheating. Guilty of making the grading become higher of their so-called "great results" & the consequences were being borne by other students who play fair? & why me...? One of the people who have to go....?

I'm Yours (with lyrics) - Jason Mraz

Nice & cute song...!

My Wish List in BDO... :-P

Hey!....of course i got a wish list...but, dunno whether can fulfill everything or not...i'm not just going to buy stuff for me & family but, also to find stuff to sell back in Malaysia...hahahaha......cant wait to get there & shop till i stop...dont wanna say shop till i drop...later, i cant come back to Malaysia, it'll be a haru-biru a.k.a. naya case...! hahahaha
Abang's stuff - adidas sport shoes + levis jeans + polo t-shirt
Idlan & Isyraf's stuff - football jerseys & cant imagine what other cute2 stuff that i can get there...
For me - handbag, sport shoes, high heels, formal attire, blouse, jeans & t-shirt of course!
For sale - handbag, kain, might be telekung, t-shirt & other other gud stuff that i can sell back here in Malaysia....

BDO, Here I Come....!

Yey...! Tomorrow afternoon i'll be leaving to Bandung & returning to Malaysia coming Sunday....hope to have a fun & fruitful journey there....Amin! Insya-Allah...
Frens, pray for me - doakan ku selamat pergi & balik.... :-D

From Rental House Becomes My House

At last...the long awaiting from banks have been answered. The loan being approved by MBSB. Today, had the documents a.k.a S&P signed. But, only get for RM117K instead of RM130K. *sigh!* Seems that we have to pay extra cost for the house for at least a year, then, will start applying for another bank with cheaper rates. There goes my dream of having a dream home....! *sigh!*

Ajak2 Ayam vs Ajak Betul...? # II

I received a phone call yesterday from a long lost (so called la...) classmate of EDQM II...the course that i took from SIRIM (it;s actually a JV of SIRIM & UTM)...surprisingly she asked me whether i want to join them for the year's graduation...hahahahahahaha! Last time she called me to join her for project discussion...but, hampeh! Betul2 mcm hampeh!....she promised me with a lot of things, but, at the end, habuk pun tarak!....aaarrggghhhh.....
Remember last time, i even take a leave just to meet up with & discuss on the outstanding paperwork. When the time comes, i went to her house, i called her & she didnt even pick up my call. After several attemps, then she picked up the phone & say sorry + she;s sick. I was really angry & cant even say a single word & i hanh up. That's the last time i spoke to her & ever deal with her.
When i received her call yesterday, i was quite shock. & the way she handled her phone was very rude. I gave her some hints + being sarcastic to her...i think she was trying to say i dont understand & was berlakon dont even know about it...huh! I would rather say "what a f*&%^^$%*&&*^ lady she is...." Harapkan bertudung je...tapi, perangai...nmpk baik, tp perangai....Allah shj yg tahu.... *sigh!*

Ajak2 Ayam vs Ajak Betul...?

I was sitting at the reception counter as usual..(with a face like a lazy cat!)..My frens having their own sweet time at the pantry eating their food while i have to wait for at least 30 minutes to have my lunch. Seems that Melina take about 45 minutes to come back. With my stomach grumbling for some mercy - i want food...i want food....though my only food for lunch are only fruits.
Then, Asma & Sheline came out. Asma came out first & ask me whether i want to join them for KFC (again...?)...i said no coz i thot only both of them r going out. If i join them, what will Kath say? So, i stayed. A few minutes later, Kath came out with Davin & D....huh? she walked straight to me & ask "we want to go for KFC. U want to tapau anything?" haaa.....& then, she quickly went to the door. It;s just to at least said what she has to say & asked what she has to ask. That;s all. & i realize now that, if i go with them, 1 car wont fit for 6 people...they're all 5 d. How can i go together with them....sigh...now i know...."real" frens or "true" frens...

Wooo...Wow!

this is really fantastic! if all people in this world would do things together like this for all other things without thinking of the difference in race, religion, etc...etc...etc...it's gonna be like the Miss World always says : World Peace...wooohoooo...!

So Sad....

Today, i have a mix feeling. But, sadness dominated the rest of the feelings...entah kenapa...syahdu lak...mane tak nye...
huh...maybe because today, i went out early to work just to stop by at Petronas to buy some muffins for the APALOCMNG people...well, sounds like a few people, actually only 1...atas perintah duli yg maha hampes cik mem besar tu la....ikut sedap die je nak mengorder...anyway, i arrived at the petronas around 7.30am...then, rushed to the office...arrived at 7.52am...wah! soooo early...then, this morning, that DYMM asked ADM (who else have to go & buy it? of course, me la...) to buy Uncle Lim's curry puff. So, i went to Subang Parade (luckily Yeusri was around & he brought me there...no need for me to drive...yey!)...When i went back, i saw that DYMM sat together with my Sr + my other frens...They were all shouting for the curry puff! Inconsiderate...that;s what i thot just now...but, they dont know how i felt actually. Cannot blame them...only my Sr + that DYMM knows. Instead of going to their table in the pantry, i went straight to my desk with the curry puff. Then, i went to the reception counter...as usual...become the "jaga" for 30 minutes or more. I was sad, come to work, then go out to do work also, & come back, didnt take a break & stay at the front...i had no lunch break today...! I was almost going to drop my tears...heard my frens was laughing at the pantry - having their own sweet rest time & for me...i have to work!....in fact, every working day i have to sacrifice my 30 minutes of lunch break to be the "jaga" at the front...sad!sob...sob...sob...

It's Been A Long Time.....(sigh...)

Hmmm...it;s been a long time...

by Amy Lynne
It's been a long time since I've seen your face
Or heard your laugh
But I'm out of place

It's all about timing
-Something I could never get right
And so I go on living these sleepless nights

48 hours, what have you done to me?
Am I the same woman in the mirror
Or am I the stranger that wants selfishly?

As a young woman, I screamed that I would never conform
I don't want to be part of the 'norm'

But now I look around and is that what I've become?
Another blue collar worker- a no one?

Settled down, all nice and sweet
Oh yes, things look just perfectly

But is it all a joke?
Like the lines in a book that I never wrote

Making others happy I thought would fulfill my dream
But then why, inside, do I want to scream?

Is it the poison of lonliness that has worn me down?
I no longer know myself -I'm scared and ready to drown

Tick tock goes the passing clock
Waiting for more than I anticipated
Oh God, help me
I no longer know myself

It's been a long time since I felt this way
Bring me to the right path everyday

hmmm...it resembles me...with so much things goes haywire in my mind...i couldnt started my writing...
i think for 1 month or so...?
Hope that this would be a beginning of a new chapter... :-)

Allahu...

Assalatu Wassalam

adeh...jatuh cinta dgn lead singer Raihan...suara dia mmg gemersik merdu....

Selawat Syifa

Doa Taubat

Really love this when i was in high school. Made me stop for a while & think of my sins. Also made me concentrate on my study as well coz it;s like clearing all my headaches, frustration, angriness, clueless.....Now, i'm listening to it again. Make me realize how i miss all this. Pls Allah, make me brave & strong to face all the challenge in this world & make me stay in Your way....

Asma ul Husna

Say Hey

ni susah nak follow...bukan line dance class

Come Dance with Me...

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