5 Top Things that I Wanna Do

There are lots of things that i wanna do in live. Most of 'em leads to frustration. Maybe God has hidden plan for me which i perhaps cant understand at all....maybe i am too demanding...
Looking at other people's live, i do envy 'em. They can simply get things in their hands. As if they do not need the work their a** out...fuuhh...! Compared to me, i have to really work so hard to get it. :-(
Well, enough talking about it...
5 Top Things I WANNA Do :
1) Learn Japanese Language - i've been eyeing for this since last 5 years...found the instructor's no. He's staying in TTDI, i guess. He's a Jap & he can speak Malay...!
Lost his number when i re-format my hp....daa....frust! ++ now, no budget for that. Have to save moeny for something else
2) Buy a 2-storey link house - hmm...i should put this at no. 1....i fall in love with Kemuning Utama residential area....with 2000 square feet built-up area, gated surrounding with security features, design & our kids love it soo much! However, we were unable to buy it. Bank says that we have too many commitments. From what i c & diagnose our expenses, seems that everything that we need for family & kids are there. We may reduce but, cant remove. We've been saving, changing, reviewing our expenses, but still cant fulfil bank's requirement....How...? Sob...sob...This is the most most most most most frustrating thing happenned in my live.
3) Travel to Turkey - ya, y not. Turkey is a nice place to visit too...Lots of architectural building & i can visit my "family angkat" there. The original plan is to go for Haj with dato' la...who else, then after settle with the Haj, we plan to travel to Turkey & Dubai...hmmm...it;s like a dream will never come true....
MATTA fair price RM2500 for adult & kid (MAS)
Normal fair price RM4500 for adult & RM3375 for kid (MAS)
4) Going for Haj at the age of 35 - this 1 also is like a dream will never come true. Hopefully Allah will help us on this.
5) Back to my slim body - huwaaaaaaaaaaaa......!!! This is the most struggling thing that i've ever done. How can i achieve back my 50kg? I've tried a lot of stuff, waste lots of money & waste loads of time....Pls help me with this......any1, pleeeeaaassseee...........am i having problem with my gene, or am i suffering from a disease that makes me unable to achieve my goal. Sometimes, i even let myself in the state of neverneding starvation. But............ :(