Aaaahh....

Hints, indirect questions, sarcasm (is it correct word?), insults & sometimes phrases in daily communications that make me upset.



Not that i dunno. Not that i dont understand. I just pretend that i dont. I just keep quiet & zip my mouth. I dont want to say a thing or explain anything. I choose silence instead. Better than talking. Not that i dont want to make people understand, but, i know people wont or try to understand. Because it is the battle between me & my heart, judgement & feelings. I dont think they'll understand. Even my own companion wont understand it. Tho' it is much related to the circumstances or certain actions from them towards me. Whatever i do now is base on what they did to me. Makes me think twice & act as per what i am now.
Yes, i am frustrated with all those words spelled out from their mouth. I am sad to hear those stuff. But, what can i say? They have the right to say it. Only i am not prepared to hear it.
But, yes....it's hurts. They said that they can do whatever they want & like. The heck with others. But, then....they said hurtfull stuff (indirectly) to me...

Just let this silence be with me. It's my way of settling my aching heart. & it's my way to think further of my action. Just let me be. Leave me the way i am....please...