Missed the good ole days in PPP/ITM...where i was struggling so hard to be among the best...where the pressure from mys sister was damn burning high...where i was trying to satisfy each 1 of them... where i dont have much frens - my sister chose frens for me...??!!!!...where i was not comfy to stay at her home due to her jealousy towards me & her hubby...where frens runaway from me because i was thinking so much how my sis' felt not what my frens felt...where i was being heartbroken...where everything seems to be on my shoulder until i couldnt bear it anymore... & in the end, i become like a runaway train... :
Hope i can go back to this time....where i should fight back to whatever my sis said to me...should fight back on what she was trying to control me & with who i was with...should accept my frens as how they accepted whoever i was...should tell my mom everything...should think about myself & how i feel instead of whatever she feels...should voice out about her jealousy & make her realize that i have no feelings toward her husband....should be mature on handling all these...but, to whom shall i rely on? i have no 1 to offer me a shoulder to cry on... Now, i live in regrets..
I am trying to enjoy my live in my own way. Expressing myself in words coz i dont talk much. I've fallen in love in Line Dancing a few years back when i joint True Fitness - now dont have the place to go to...(money + membership expired), i love colors, swarovsky crystals - would love to learn how to do it, in the midst of searching for a secure & promising job...etc...etc...etc... I think there;s too much colors in my life :-P
; BTW, try to look for http://suchnsuch09.blogspot.com as well, coz i am trying to build my own web biz. :-P
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