"Jaga" 25/5/10

"Jaga" during lunch time is not so bad lar...but, today....it;s really way out of line...i went out to find food. D refused to asked me / ignore me since monday morning...okey...what the heck! I dont mind...i can find my own food. Then, i went out at 12.02pm heading to Carrefour Subang Jaya. Bought tom yam + rice + omellette...Went down to Carrefour to look for ISOMIL Plus....if there;s promo, then i'll buy for 1 month stock.
I drove back to Maersk, had a race with Civic 1.8 on the way back (hehehehe....), & when i stepped in the office, saw those FIN girls + kath + 2 OPS lady happily eating at the pantry...The time already 5 minutes pass 1pm. So, i straight away kept my things at my desk, took my bowl & fork + spoon & my water bottle & straight to the pantry. Well, they asked me to sit with them...Which is fine with me...Talk a bit...Then, i started eating my food quietly + pretending nothing happened...since D always say that she dont care...so, why i shud care what she felt & think....
Then, finished eating, i saw my watch already 1.30pm. Kath & a few others are still there, havent going to wrap up whatever they started. So, i started to make a move towards the sink bowl, wash whatever needed & packed the rest of stuff, walked straight to the frontdesk. I didnt say a word. I hope they will feel guilty...but, seems that they dont...hump!!!

I'm still here...

Aku di sini...lagi...duduk di frontdesk...jd frontdesk manager...hahahaha...
Dah la suh aku duk sini...org lain syok2 keluar lunch...aku jenuh pk nak lunch ape...yg cepat, pantas, then leh duk sini...Cuba la bg kat aku menatang ni...yg letak kat kepala & telinga tu...kasik wirelessnye...sure aku hepi la...bg meja ni cantik sikit...huhuhhu....kasi aku nmpk glemer sikit duk kat dpn neh... Pehtu, bg le uniform canggih sikit...tailor-made kan...aku pun sukeeee sesangat...bg make-up set, anta pi training make-up neh...for sure aku suke....hmmm....ape lg aku nak merapu meraban ni ha...dah duk kat dpn mcm 'batu' je....
haa....nak amik gmbr la....gmbr frontdesk neh...nanti korang tgk ye...dlm facebook pun ade...huhuhuhu...

Aku Cuma Seorang Kuli-ketip

Sesungguhnya aku benci duduk di depan ni...jadi "jaga"...Tp, apa aku nak buat?
Aku cuma seorang kuli-ketip...Kerja2 ku sebagai Admin Executive...huh!...dipandang rendah oleh sesetengah org Maersk...depa ingat Admin ni keje senang...keje remeh...keje kerani je kot...sbb tu sesetengah tu pandang sebelah mate je, sometimes tak pandang langsung!
Menjadi kebiasaan kalau kami di Admin ni diperlekehkan dgn kata2 yg "menarik" / "sedap di dgr" oleh staff2 kat sini...diperbodohkan pun perkara biasa...tp most of the times, kami diam. Dept aku, cuma aku dgn Kath. Nita dah kene transfer ke 2nd floor. Jd Admin di sana. Kami dipecahkan...hmmm....tp, bl ada apa2, org carik Admin. Bende2 stupid pun nak tanye Admin. Ni lah dia...org2 yg pandang kami dgn sebelah mata...'bende2 stupid' + 'mende2 remeh' ni, dtg lah depa carik kami...tak sedar diri betul...! Sabar aje lah...
berbalik semula psl duk dpn ni...ye la...aku dgn kath je kat admin ni yg tinggal...oleh kerana die senior aku, maka akulah yg kene terpacak kat dpn ni bl receptionist cuti ke, sakit ke, emergency ke....dulu, ade 2 org receptionist. Sekarang ni tggl sorang sbb si Pakistani tu p terminate sorang. Dia tak pk consequences nya...die cuma pk, jimat company money & more money can go to his pocket...huh! (actually ni assumption kitorang la...tp mmg betul...secara x langsungnya...).
Aku terpaksa terima dgn tidak relanya...marah pun ade...kadang2 tu rasa kecewa la...dah duk kat dpn ni, ape lah sgt yg aku leh buat...mati kutu satu...sib baik la boleh link dgn internet...tp...aku kan...bukannye leh tahan lama wat satu2 mende tu...cepat boring! Takkan la seharian aku nak ngadap internet...bos nmpk, tak bagus...super big bos nampak, lagiiiiiiii la tak bagus...kalo konco2 or spy2 dia yg nmpk? bukan takat tak bagus, haru...tp leh mati dibuatnye...ye lah...org nye penyampaian tu kekadang exaggerating...melebih2...menjadikan kite ni mcm 'org x guna' + 'mcm sampah' laks...adeh!
Kdg tu...bukan kdg2...selalu...kecewa bl duk dpn ni sbb at least aku nye lunch break dah kene potong 1/2 jam...adil ke idak? org lain leh senang2 rehat 1 jam, sometimes smpi 2 jam...aku ni laks...dah la jd centre org nak menumpang kete beli food, mtk tlg aku p beli food, pehtu rush blk bawak food, p mkn - rush jg & terus p jd 'jaga' kat dpn sementara receptionist p break...tak demotivated ker camnih? Geram pun ade...
sedih pun ye...nasib..nasib...
Kalo nak tau, time keje is keje la...time rehat pun org nak kacau...time mkn...bukannye kire depa2 ni...as if Admin ni takyah rehat...tulah...kdg2 tu, kalo ade yg kacau time rehat, aku bg glaring lebih sikit mate tu kat org tu...kasik pandangan menusuk kalbu sikit...biar depa terperasan...hehehehehe....kdg tu bg expression muke tak puas ati...rasakan...huwahahahaha......bagus tak...?
lepas tu....aku tak tau la senior aku tu perasan ke idak...ataupun die saje buat2 tak perasan...time die break mmg cukup lama / panjang compare dgn aku...dah la aku bekejar belikan die food, blk die mkn sama...aku dah sudah mkn, die tak sudah lg...sembang tak habis, dgn gelak2 with other 'makan kaki'...frustrating la camni...aku takleh enjoy my lunch hour, takleh nak kasi perut aku rehat lps1 mkn, takleh nak tarik nafas tu kejap...huhuhuhuhu....
Dahla jd 'jaga' kat dpn...tp tu le...mana extra gaji aku for the extra work? Mane extra gaji aku for the extra time taken from my lunch break? Mane extra gaji aku sbb jd 'org suruhan' tak bertauliah....
Aku x suke...senior aku tau...bos aku tau...cuma...si Pakistani keparat perasan Royal kat Mesia nih yg otak letak kat lutut...tak pk ker? Kalu nak ikutkan, dah lama dah aku sue this company...senang2 jek...Tp, aku teringat CD yg ayang beli...ustadz tu ckp, sabar...ganjaran di akhirat sok teramatlah besar...aku marah?...ye..aku bengang?..ye...aku terima? yee....aku kecewa?...ye...aku sedih?...ye...aku redha?...hmmm...aku tgk pk2 ni...50/50 lagik...hopefully, akan dtg, aku redha 100%
:-I

Hopefully It's Going to Inspire Me...

Last 2 weeks, i found this blog by Husaini Ujang...quite interesting though coz this guy set his 90-day goal a.k.a limit to reduce his weight to....well...i havent finish reading it all yet...just reach his 31st day of using JDM5 & his dieting diary...hmmm...seems that he's easily able to reduce his weight & his mind can conquer his appetite & 'nafsu' from eating all those mouth-watering food. Yeah...sometimes he even eat those 'not-supposed-to-eat-food' as well but, the quantity is just enough to taste / itsy-bitsy / lose those cravings...really 'kuat iman' la this guy...& yeah...he's a guy...for most guys, it's easy for them to cut the fat compared to women...he just bike / brisk walk / jog for only about 30-40 minutes, he is able to cut at least 0.5 gram....that;s almost 2 pound rite?...well, i hope his blog could inspire me more...have to start back my JDM5 regime...& this time, must do it stringently...? hahaha....hopefully...& by the way, this guy managed to NOT HAVING EVEN A SPOON OF NASI for more than a month (according to what i read & where i stop reading just now...heheheh) Fuuhhh!...way to go man...salute!