I was too Angry Last Nite / Marah Tak Terhingga..?

Just because of 2-pc of jersy-material of tudung, i was too angry with him. He simply do things without thinking more. "Never care less" - this is what he is!....aaarrgghhh...!
I bought these tudung at Danga Bay Johor. RM25 each after negotiated with the owner. So, i bought 2 pieces coz much2 cheaper than in Shah Alam's price. The owner claimed that the front part (awning) of the tudung is specially made & when we wear it, the curve will follow the curve of our face.So, whenever we wear it, it;ll be perfectly nice on our face. Yes! It;s true & i am happy with it...Regret that i only bought for 2 pieces. Then, i care for it. I hang the tudung properly, even washed it properly & hang to dry in nicely manner so that the front-part wont break.
But, he simply take off the tudung from the hanger & lump together with the rest of other dry clothes on the couch. I was going to take it from the laundry area last nite, & i couldnt find it at all....! I already panic...i was afraid that he'll simply do things as i expected - lump & dump everything together...i didnt want to simply jump to conclusion so, i look around at the hanging ironed clothes area - didnt see any...i went back to the laundry area, twice - none. I went to the closet, also didnt c a single thing....arrgghhh!!!....then i went to the last place - dumping clothes at the couch....there it was...found both being lump & being seated at the bottom or dumped clothes.....i was really really really angry! I even shouted in angry & agony....why on earth does he did this to me! Why cant he think more? Why...? I've told him many times before that this tudung can be find at the SACC but the price is RM60-70 per piece. I;ve bought 1 at the PKNS, but, the front part is not the same. I even bought it at RM48 per piece & am not satisfy with it at all. Which part actually dont register to his head? Why dont he want to listen to whatever i told him? Why cant he care for more instead of care for less?????.....
The thing is :
@ i told him dozens of times about the price & quality which is actually hard to find. Those were sold at RM10 - 30 here is all fake
@ i am thinking of starting fresh next year bit by bit by wearing tudung to work, & collecting / buying a number of tudung specially this type, but he ruined it!
I am so damn angry!
He wanted me to wear tudung - that;s all he can think of!...He only want me to wear tudung but never care for other things - solat, puasa, zakat, etc etc etc was never being mentioned from his mouth! IT IS the other way round. I;m the 1 who ask him to do all these things. For me, i have to think / do by myself! You know what...sometimes i really call him a SHIT. (yaaa...sometimes i dont care the consequences during the end of the world coz i was really mad with him...i know it;ll be a BIG SIN...but, i was too mad! Though i never spell it out from my mouth only from my heart - it's still a big sin)
Sakit nye hati bila die dtg dekat semalam, lain kali basuh sendiri, gantung sendiri, angkat sendiri...balas balik mmg la basuh sendiri, gantung sendiri tp awak tu p angkat & campur dgn kain lain apsal? Kenapa angkat kalo tak reti nak jaga? Bengang...bengang...bengang....suruh aku pakai tudung, tp mende2 camni takmo tolong jaga...nampak sgt buat mende, sekadar lepas batuk tepi tangga takmo buat sungguh2....hidup hari2 pun bersepah...suke sgt menyepah...nak tolong pun dgn cara sepah die...walhal die dah nampak cara aku buat, teratur...menyenangkan dia aje...part ni mcm tak pernah masuk otak die...buat properly biar the next step tu tak perlu nak buat kerja 2X....part mana yg dia tak nampak...itu yg kadang2 keluar perkataan BODOH dari hati aku...dah lama being together pun takleh nak buat properly...so, hari ni aku malas nak ckp dgn dia...even sampai next week...target aku nak cukupkan tudung before year 2010. Kalau aku tak jumpa tudung2 murah kat sini, i might even drive to Danga Bay & buy the tudung. Pedulik apa....my car, my fuel, my Zing card...pernah ke selama ni die dgn rela hati nak sponsor tudung aku? Tak pernah sekalipun!...tanye pun idak, janji ape2 pun idak...pandai2 sendiri la...selama hari ni aku yg beli sendiri...duit aku sendiri...kalau dia ade bayar pun, itupun sebab aku mintak...mintak bayarkan...die pulak mcm la aku tak nampak bila die keluarkan wallet - muke tak ikhlas...mcm ni punye peel tp suruh aku pakai tudung? Mane aku tak bengang???? Nak beli baju kurung pun, nak kene mintak2 dgn dia...langsung tak pk or tak tanye aku perlukan ke idak....ape punye lelaki mcm nih...???? Sakit ati aku!...